Why is it that i can't accept or come to terms with the fact i have to stand by and watch my mother ruin her life all for the sake of a drink of alcoholic?

Well i've tried and tried to come to terms with this and when you think good things are shapping someone or something comes along and sticks a spanner in the works why?

for twenty years plus she has been an alcoholic and not once have i ever given up hope, hoping one day she would surprise me and be the mum she should be. Not knowing her the way i should have done doesn't help me but i have always been there to help and aid her and she some how manages to throw it back in my face. I've not only mothered three of my own children, but had to mother my sibblings and my mother which isn't fair but ya know i get on with it and deal with it. Yes the pressure gets to me and there are more times than not i want to just give up and *** orf away from the everyday bussle in life! So someone who is in the know how come forward and tell me where do we truely turn to for help! As it's not that easy, is it? for those who can relate to this?

It's all good sharing words and putting it together on paper which is bull lets get it in practise as i'm sick to death with promises and lies within everyday life!